Reflections on Change

I have been reflecting a lot lately on how I got to where I am today, how I am so much more comfortable in my skin, with who I am and what I bring to the world. I wasn't always this way and have suffered with anxiety and fear a lot of my life. I remember in a particularly dark moment a few years back thinking I would never resurface from the darkness and didn't know how I was going to live the rest of my life feeling this way. To everyone else I seemed happy, positive and confident....and underneath that mask that I put on everyday I was anything but those things.

This past year has been a year of huge changes that forced me to look deeper, to allow myself to explore the root of my fears and insecurities. And you know what? Once I shined the light on what I perceived to be my dark and shame filled places, they weren't nearly as dark and scary as my ego had built them up to be. I realized that I am just human and that this impossible standard I had been trying to live up to had been set by me and that I could just give myself a break! The smoke & mirror show I used to distract me from my greatness had been revealed and it was time to show up for ME! And I did....

These days.....I allow myself on a daily basis to let go of having to be perfect, to own my beautiful imperfections to love who I am exactly as I am. I practice gratitude everyday and let myself feel whatever I need to feel without judgement or shame. I honor the time I need for self care and quiet time. I stopped striving and settled into allowing my life to unfold in the beautiful way it does when I stop trying to control every outcome or prepare for every tragedy. I affirm in every moment that I am divinely guided, supported and provided for. I ask every day "How can I serve?" and listen for that answer.

And you know what the most beautiful surprise was...?

The powerful, loving souls who showed up in my life to mirror all of that back to me....I am forever grateful for the courage I found to show up for my life and vibrationally create the life I want and deserve. I encourage you to do the same.

The renewal of Spring...and the return of the SUN

"If we are to be Soul Makers,

we must not reject the idea of the Womb."

~ Djohariah Toor

Whenever new life grows and emerges, going into the darkness is crucial to the process. The Caterpillar must go into the Chrysalis, the Child grows in the darkness of the Sacred Womb, the Seed is planted deep into Mother Earth....there is always a time of waiting in the dark. So in order to "birth" your true self, you must delve into the darkness of the Soul and decide what no longer serves you, what is no longer true for you and make the conscious choice to surrender and release these outdated beliefs and patterns to recover what is lost, heal what is wounded and become who YOU really are. Allow your vulnerability to guide you in exploring what part of you is disconnected from your feelings and give yourself permission to feel.

So, as we emerge from our dark Winter hibernation, our womb of inner reflection, with the hope and promise of Spring right around the corner, may we all have the courage to allow the shedding of our old selves and OWN our unique expressions of the Divine!

Give yourself permission to grow, shine, flourish and change the world!

Allowing Others to Heal in Their Own Time...

I saw this post on Facebook today from Iyanla Vanzant and it really touched a place in me that I struggle with sometimes as a Reiki Healer. I am sure many of you can relate whether you are in the healing arts or not. "What do you do when it seems as if people want to stay in their pain. They have a story to tell and they tell you every chance they get. Well, believe it or not, they may like where they are. Our job is to leave them there. You can point the way out of pain, but you cannot force them to get out. You can support the move beyond their limitations, but you cannot make the move for them." This is a tough lesson to learn as a healer, when you heal yourself and you see how great you feel after facing your aches, pains, fears & anxieties....you so badly want others to feel that freedom. But everyone comes to that knowledge when and if they are ready to. Great lesson in stepping back and allowing others to manifest the life they want. All we can do is offer the knowledge and lead by example....someday maybe they will love themselves enough to take that first step to freedom. I wish you the courage to heal....

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